Who Rules ?

I'm a bit frustrated and disappointed today. Why? Today is my self-proclaimed weigh-in day. I bet you already know what I am about to write next. I got up on the scale this morning and it has betrayed me! I have gained a half pound since last week.


Now my intellectual self calmly tells me not too worry.

--It could be some water retention

-- it could be some hormonal monthly stuff

-- it could be a fluke

My intellectual self tells me weight fluctuates and next week it may move double, instead I should think about how my clothes are fitting

( it's true-- I was just remarking to myself yesterday that my workout sweats were getting a bit baggy where last week they were a bit more filled out)

but GOLLY! I am doing at least 30 minutes of cardio every day --and I don't like doing cardio ( even though I feel better afterwards). I am strength training 3 times a week and I am doing the videos for the January Workout Challenge. These 10 minute videos really pack a punch!

I haven't been eating all the extras that I really want to -- and most days I am under or at my calorie level --except the weekend --I kind of blew it last weekend-  (But I had nuetralized that weekend excess by Tuesday)

*Sigh*

One thing I could improve upon is tracking my food intake. I usually write it down in a notebook, but don't get it transferred over to where all the nutrients are analyzed soI can see exactly how many calories, protein, fat, carbs, etc. I am eating.  I will try to be more diligent and use my tracker. 

So I stepped on the scale this morning and would have been delighted to see a pound or two gone to reward me for all my persistent effort. Instead I was greeted with a half pound gain. It makes me want to go eat. Seriously! I was tempted to go to the kitchen and just eat--

Isn't it interesting how I can let the scale rule my emotions.

I didn't go eat. Eventually I did have my regular breakfast, but I fought the urge to throw caution to the wind and eat my heart out - literally.

The temptation to soothe my emotions with food has passed now, thank goodness.

What determines how I feel for the day? Me ? Or my scale? Who Rules?

That is the question I will need to ask myself when these days come.
 
Who Rules? 

Pulling out of the H-L Challenge at this time

I decided not to participate in the Hate-Loss Challenge this month.  I have several things going on and don't believe I can do this challenge justice at this time. 

Living in a Hate- Free Zone

I am participating in the Hate-Loss Challenge for the month of January.  This is a new kind of challenge for a new year and it runs from January 1 - 31. 

This is a challenge not of the physical sense (although I believe that it will affect me physically), but of the mental/emotional sense.  This month long endeavor will challenge participants to lose the negative attitudes towards ourselves and will promote positivity and a healthy self-view regardless of our size at the moment.

We need to take care of ourselves - the mental/emotional self, the physical self, and the spiritual self.  All three are important in order to be in balance.  This challenge will focuses on the mental/emotional self.    

It is a new year and this new challenge will help me to transform into my new old self.